![]() ![]() My daughter literally just told me that she doesn’t think I love her. I need to get money from my other sister and my mom to pay for shower stuff. I need to order the cakes for my sisters bridal shower. I have clutter every where in my house and it’s making me feel like I’m suffocating. (I don’t get a period because of the birth control that I’m on but I’m assuming that it would normally be my time of the month right now. I’m feeling WICKED fucking self conscious about my body the last two days. I got mad earlier because the kids used all of the paper towels. I have a pile of recycling stacked up next to my garbage can, making it hard to get into the laundry closet. I have a pile of laundry that’s been sitting on my couch for over a week. And then tomorrow I’ll figure out where to go, hopefully in an upward motion.īut today, right now, I have so many things bouncing around in my brain. I’m giving myself the room to just immerse myself in my gross, heavy, sticky feelings. That’s not what I said to do in my previous posts.īut that’s why I’m here. On paper and all.īut anyway – whenever I’m having a lot of big feelings I just blame it on that instead of figuring out what is really up with me. I think I missed taking my medicine last night, or the night before. ![]() And not all the time.īut today…my brain is mush. Well I’ve invited you all here to witness the good, the bad, and the divine.Īt least that’s what my logo thingy says. I’m sure those are huge contributing factors. #Mommas boy moons of madness full#We had a really busy weekend.Īnd the attitude has been in full swing from my 9 year old. I really just want to go to bed.Īnd I have laundry in the washer and dryer. The remainder of the night is up in the air. – one is eating one and one is eating the other. #Mommas boy moons of madness mac#So we’re having chicken nuggets and Mac n cheese for dinner.Īnd when I say chicken nuggets and Mac n cheese I mean They forgave me and helped put the food away.Īnd now I’m drinking angry orchard. That I was anxious and they were just not listening ALL day. I apologized to the kids and just told them that I wasn’t feeling well today. That trip was pretty much my demise because when we got home I just kept yelling about groceries and ripped paper bags. Where an employee asked me if I was tired and I replied “kids”. Where I had to continuously scowl “no” under my breath to them. On the couch, while they watched some wild YouTube influencer. So they would leave me alone – and get the fuck out of the kitchen. They ate snacks (including skittles) until I got it together. I got up and made breakfast around 10:45. I woke up around 10:15 – which was at least one hour after my kids woke up. Let me tell you, though, about how my day has gone. It’s so freaking easy for you to feel disappointed in yourself – or guilty. It has a real son-of-a-bitch way of making you feel alone. ![]() If nothing else I want you to know that the days that are hard…you’re not alone. This kind of thing is EXACTLY why I’m here. It really only gave me peace of mind and allowed me to fall asleep faster Wednesday night. ![]() I did what I said I was going to do with my intentions and my crystal. I started feeling like the world was closing in on me. Somewhere around Thursday I started feeling super MEH. I fully intended on writing a blog post every day last week. Maybe writing this will give me some motivation to…well…care. Self care doesn’t exist to me today – at least not yet. It’s back, back again…I feel like this week went by so fast. ![]()
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